title of this particular post may not quite "match" the BS I 'm probably about to spout and I may use it again down the road, so beware. BUT, I am going to try (as of today), to make this blog a weekly thing. for me and for you. for me, so I can maybe get some of the clutter OUT of my head, sort it, see it from a different view (with your help), you know. kind of a cathartic release on my end. and for you purely for entertainment. yeah, I see you sitting there going "OMG!! NO!!" "how much can one daffy heifer spout?!" hey. you're reading it so who's the daffy-er one!! anyhoo, that being said, I had been kinda stewing on what topic I might broach first and I kept coming up with decent thoughts but to be honest, right now it's all a massive jumble in there and what I WAS gonna sound off about is looking a bit flat to me right now so I tried going back to another something that had caught my attention in the last few days, only I don't know quite how to approach that one either, and then all these thoughts go spinning and flying around in my head to the point where I begin to question my own sanity because nothing I say makes any sense. damn that was a long ass sentence. see? THAT should tell you my sanity is definitely in question. well, if this blog thing works out, believe me when I say you will most surely question more than my sanity from time to time as I am sure I will go from pleasant to asshole in 0.5 seconds and back again. I will whine from time to time, bitch and moan about how unfair things are or how my anxiety has taken over again (as it is trying to do at this very moment) or how I want to strangle my offspring one day to "loving them so much!" the next. be prepared to shake your head and go "what the hell is she smoking today?" which by the way, I OFFICIALLY have had to quit smoking for once and all. for good. it's helping keep my vertigo flaring and I kinda don't like that swimmy-headed, fuzzy feeling. so good-bye Marlboro's. ok. OK!!! stop clapping and cheering now!!!! ok. where was I? oh yeah. I may say things that will offend or make you angry and if I do, please have the balls to let me know. I am not perfect and definitely do NOT know everything (although sometimes I am convinced I do - hey! I'm human.)
so I will say things that not everyone agrees with. just please know that I by no means expect everyone to agree with me either. and I like it that way. and if you really want to know just how much to question my sanity, I am listening to Christmas music as I write this. just because I wanna. Amy Grant to be specific. gimmie 5 minutes and it'll be Rob Zombie ....... yeah. hang on and come with if you're brave enough.